/ self
23, reflections
- solo traveller
- Taipei was the first. Japan, China, Taiwan, Singapore, Malaysia and Thailand since.
- offline
- Sketching, crochet, piano, FPS games.
- learning
- Chinese and Japanese.
- on repeat
- Gigi Masin, Call Me
/ 23
23 today. Everything was slow until I hit 20; after that it's been a race with time.
It's hard to have a conversation with yourself, so I keep myself busy enough not to. I think it's okay to keep running, as long as you're alive.
/ tattoo
I got a tattoo on my birthday, in Japan, while I was there for a conference: red spider lilies, Higanbana.
They bloom around the autumn equinox, so in Japan they're tied to ancestors and the afterlife. Another name, 曼珠沙華 (Manjushage), comes from Buddhist tradition: a celestial flower from heaven.
What kind of tattoos would I like?
The most meaningless ones. I'm tired of making sense of everything.
/ not enough
I live with a sense of urgency that I'm not doing nearly enough. I don't hate it. It keeps me driving.
As a kid I knew I couldn't help my parents much, but doing well made them happy. I've kept going ever since.
What's actually enough?
Idk.
/ travelling
For someone who used to rot in bed, I've come to love travelling. My first solo international trip was to Taipei on my 22nd birthday; 7–8 countries since.
I skip the tourist spots and wander random streets. It makes me uncomfortable, and that's the point. Acceptance is the only way to life.
/ food
Food is BEST BEST BEST. That's my best vocabulary.
/ hobbies
Drawing (sketching most of all), crochet, piano and harmonium, and learning Chinese and Japanese.
/ regrets
I don't think I have any. I don't know if I'll ever live a happy life, but there's no way I'll live a regretful one.
I'll keep making mistakes and keep accepting them.